| on the bside of life |
[Feb. 28th, 2010|02:48 am] |
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You know, I have those moments in my life
where sometimes i look around me and think about myself
and I think. why the fuck do I still have the same friends
they know me inside and out
and still like me. the I think man I have so many sour qualities
is it that theyre afraid to make new friends?
I really cant see sense in it. I like to think that maybe
the good in me prevails in their eyes. that the good is soo good that
they cant let it go or something. but then I think I dont do shit anymore
so I cant really see why people want to hang out with me.
then I think about women. and how well I dont meet them anymore
ive been lonely lately.
i want something new, exciting, a challenge.
I want a new chapter. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2010|10:30 pm] |
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Stoked on not having anyone to live with next year. Its really comforting. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2010|02:35 am] |
I'm the king of procrastination. This weekend is going to be hell for me.
So much working, but so much money. We will see how this pan's out. I did my spending for the week tonight. Pre-ordered Polyanna, Devil and God, Unfun, Hello Bastards, and 24 Hour Revenge Therapy on vinyl. Also bought myself a buncha socks, some cheap ass aviators, and a suit from work. I gotta crack down on reading this books for school. I feel like I fucking just hate reading, but i don't. I just hate HAVING to read. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2010|02:19 am] |
Classes have been quite easy so far. We've been working on 'Of Mice and Men' haha. But in my other English class we have been reading 'The House of the Seven Gables' by Hawthorne. I don't mean no disrespect to our forefathers of literature but this book is so boring. I understand that it is mostly description and at the time there were not a trillion options for books. But I find myself just skipping huge paragraphs. I can only imagine how im going to write a paper on this haphazard mess. Anyone here's a picture of a copy of the book. It's based in Salem and the house exists there. But im still bored.
Other than that my online class should be easy enough save for a 7 page paper and the tests. And my Philosophy class is a cake walk so far. Then there's creative writing. This class is gonna be the bane of my existence. I do not really take other peoples opinions of being creative well. considering my teacher is a pompous young author.
Sam I want some crepes. |
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[Jan. 30th, 2010|10:23 pm] |
There's a frozen emptiness in my chest for this semester of school.
For life as it is right now.
I am broke as fuck, which is my fault spending all this cash on things that I don't really need. I am trying to be a good student, but I have so much shit to read and I just can't get myself on track for that shit.
Fuck. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2010|02:23 am] |
My teeth have gone to shit.
I need to see the dentist.
I better see you good friends this weekend for Tim's birthday. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2010|01:02 am] |
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| | Rise And Fall - Knowing | ] |
All of a sudden money is really stressing me out.
This sucks.
I started classes today. Well yesterday.
They seem promising. I may be able to do well for once, but we shall see how little effort i give. One day i'll learn how important this shit really is.
But for now I prefer to stay up late, feel sorry for myself and eat sandwiches. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2010|01:47 am] |
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I feel like i'm missing out on a lot. |
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[Jan. 18th, 2010|07:12 pm] |
Bed Room
the list of books I need for this semester haha...
im already halfway read in my short novel class baha.
Anth
Past In Perspective Feder 4th Edition
Engl Six American
Queer, Burroughs Edition
Light In August (Trade Ed) Faulkner
House Of The Seven Gables (Hawthorne Edition)
Their Eyes Were Watching God (Modern Classic) Hurston Edition
McTeague (New Intro Solomon)(Norris Edition)
Miss Lonelyhearts & Day of the locust (West Edition)
Short Novel
Severed Head Murdoch
Daisy Miller James
Great Gatsby Fitzgerald
Slaughterhouse - Five Vonnegut
Ethan Frome Wharton
Of Mice & Men Steinbeck |
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[Jan. 18th, 2010|04:50 am] |
Back in the city of hail and sleepless nights.
I spent the bus ride back to Boston sleeping, and the Sophie was kind enough to pick me and Kevin up. Reflections on NY. Well. Everyone I met living in the city did not pay any of their own bills. Most of them had their parents paying their bills so I guess I understand how MOST kids live in the city now, but fuck man thats a lot of cash to be dropping on your kid every month. A few of them didnt even have jobs or go to school.. Just living on their parents money and getting high all day long. crazy.. Every attraction I was told to visit from friends was a let down, the record store that was supposed to be awesome was on par with fucking newbury comics for their punk/hardcore selection. So i did not find one good record store. Well except for a hip hop one that I got an eminem 2xlp for 10 bucks at. I want to go back to the venue that I saw blacklisted at, they are playing their again in march. anyone want to take a day trip out to nyc to see the show? I would really like to do that so please let me know.
I spent so much fucking cash in NY. I didnt get myself anything but that LP but I am terrified to check my bank account. Transportation and food is through the damn roof. I hope I'll be able to send our rent check out safe and sound without worrying about it too much.
I don't want to be in Boston, I don't want to be in NY. I don't want to go back to school. I can't afford books. I really have no clue what I am going to do. |
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